My friend Anna and I were talking this morning about God's big picture. We both have been living at home again for a little while (not necessarily as a first choice, even though we love our families). When I first got home in June I was counting and planning on only being here for a couple of months. I spent the first 3 months literally crying everyday because of disappointment, lack of control, and lack of trust. This was quite an accomplishment for me might I add.
We started taking Anna's dog, Rileigh, to the Mountain 2 or 3 days a week. Just for some sanity and some sort of rountine. We're girls so we usually spend the entire 1 1/2 up and back talking. Its been so cool this week to look back and think of all the things we were both anxious, fearful and complaining about even 4 months ago. God has been so faithful to us both. There are things I would never have learned if God had just give me what I wanted from the begining. Everyone always says that, but I'm really seeing how His plan is not only bigger, but truely better. It's easy to think "Oh, I can be joyful once I get my full support and get back to Southern" or "Everything would be a lot easier if Danny and I just got married". But, even when these things do happen we find there is always something else unatainable or just out of reach. That is when we forget to put our hope in God and put our hope in the things God can give. I'm learning and see how attentive God is to the details. Not only does He see them, He created, ordained and somehow works them all together for our good and His glory. This is truly amazing.
I never believed anyone when they said a wedding was hard to plan or that there were SO many details (if you are shaking your head you don't know what you're talking about either). Its so insane. Its fun, but so easy to get overwhelmed because you've got to micromanage and think for A TON of people. We've got a lot of the big things worked out already, but the last one is pretty huge-the reception. It may sound funny, but I'm really fighting and reminding myself to trust the Lord. He is the one who has brought me and Danny together, I fully believe that. And He is the one who has already made so many impossible things possible. As I remind myself that I don't have to have it all together, but just take one step in the direction of the Lord at the time, I want to say the Lord will bring just what we need and no less. Can't wait to see what He provides. A wedding is joyful and exciting and it is meant to mirror the church and Christ, why wouldn't He want it to be a glorious celebration?!
We started taking Anna's dog, Rileigh, to the Mountain 2 or 3 days a week. Just for some sanity and some sort of rountine. We're girls so we usually spend the entire 1 1/2 up and back talking. Its been so cool this week to look back and think of all the things we were both anxious, fearful and complaining about even 4 months ago. God has been so faithful to us both. There are things I would never have learned if God had just give me what I wanted from the begining. Everyone always says that, but I'm really seeing how His plan is not only bigger, but truely better. It's easy to think "Oh, I can be joyful once I get my full support and get back to Southern" or "Everything would be a lot easier if Danny and I just got married". But, even when these things do happen we find there is always something else unatainable or just out of reach. That is when we forget to put our hope in God and put our hope in the things God can give. I'm learning and see how attentive God is to the details. Not only does He see them, He created, ordained and somehow works them all together for our good and His glory. This is truly amazing.
I never believed anyone when they said a wedding was hard to plan or that there were SO many details (if you are shaking your head you don't know what you're talking about either). Its so insane. Its fun, but so easy to get overwhelmed because you've got to micromanage and think for A TON of people. We've got a lot of the big things worked out already, but the last one is pretty huge-the reception. It may sound funny, but I'm really fighting and reminding myself to trust the Lord. He is the one who has brought me and Danny together, I fully believe that. And He is the one who has already made so many impossible things possible. As I remind myself that I don't have to have it all together, but just take one step in the direction of the Lord at the time, I want to say the Lord will bring just what we need and no less. Can't wait to see what He provides. A wedding is joyful and exciting and it is meant to mirror the church and Christ, why wouldn't He want it to be a glorious celebration?!
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So last night I finished the third chapter in "Strong women soft hearts" and ironically it was about pain. I feel as though some of the words that Paula Rinehart shares are very comforting... "Pain is the special province of the heart. And in the providence of a merciful God, he is able to convert it to something golden. Something good." So, I am trusting and believe that the Lord is going to use all of the pain and disappointment for something wonderful. For instance... you are getting married :). I can't wait to hang out with you Saturday. I love you Meredith!
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